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Won't be blogging until after the New Years. I'll do more continuation of the previous post in a later date. Too much events on hand right now! ... so... Happy New Years in advance too! =]
Remember...
...Those who are happy, be happier and appreciate more for those close to and with you.
...Those who are sad, smile, and continue to smile more on the good things in life and spend your time with those who cherishes you.
In either case, look forward into the new year as a new beginning, as an advancement in life, as a time to search for higher prospective.
Have a Merry Christmas
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PS: Sorry if I didn't leave messages on your blogs on new updates. I'll do that after the New Years~ Cheers!
One word closest to my heart. It's what sets who I am as a person, in body, mind, and soul. I strive for it everyday, whether I am typing this post now, when I workout, what music I determine as 'free', when I am dreaming, or when I go seeking for lasting friendships in our dreary circle.
I continue to liberate myself to improve, to add a sense of substance in the meaning of life. Reality is cruel, I always say. George Bush creating anger, sickness and death for those in the Middle East. The global economy crashing during the 'recession' and suicides await. Prop 8 being passed in California, despite 'freedom' being the center of American culture.
Why is this liberation so close to me? I was anti-social. I am a gay Asian. I was left alone by friends and families. Because of my own actions, I lost the majority of my youth and corrupted my teenage years. Even till this day, I still wished I've done something earlier... or someone would had came along and pulled me back up...
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Times had changed...
I've gone social
Learning how to communicate through books, hard practices, and personal drive
I accomplished much, but still much more to learn, especially 'Appreciation'
I've came out
Family knows my status. Somewhat accepted as who I am.
Friends know my status. I meet and befriended many new gay friends and couples.
I fend for and challenge myself
I rely on myself by "learning and trying everything", not matter how disgusting or risky they may be.
I push myself to workout.
I pursue for what I want instead of waiting.
I make this blog my ritual and stand by it.
I create goals and stick to them, no matter how difficult they may be.
I learn from my past and make myself a better person
"History repeats itself" --> "Those who forgot are those who repeat. Those who don't learn, don't grow."
I MYSELF ended my row of online gaming addictions and took on healthy interests and hobbies (reading, exploring, working out)
I MYSELF changed my career path not only to be more 'unique', but to have a job which helps people (health and safety)
I started recycling and being less wasteful to better our Earth. (environment)
I force myself to be better than everyone else, then share my wisdom for those willing to listen.
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I have noticed for a long time, love is connected to my word. For those who did not see "There She Is!!" by SamBakZa, it talks not only about liberation, but also love. Though not explicitly depicting it, it's could be about interracial love, about transgenders, about gays, about lesbians, about our freedoms, about our rights...
Bye Brendel... not old enough to make enough money to see you...~ =/
Schubert Impromptu No.3 in G flat major (heart Schubert)
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Stuff about me:
Name: Tony Birthplace: Edmonton - Alberta, Canada (go Oilers!) Current Location: Vancouver Eye Color: Brown Hair Color: Black Height: 6'0 feet (182-183cm) Right Handed or Left Handed: Right handed Your Heritage: Canadian/Chinese (aka CBC) The Shoes You Wore Today: Nike Your Weakness: Over-expectation Your Fears: Forgotten Your Perfect Pizza: Hawaiian BBQ Chicken with Caramelize Onion and Bell-Peppers Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Get a great summer body by Summer 2009 Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: LOL Thoughts First Waking Up: don't wake me up Your Best Physical Feature: what's down there? Your Bedtime: when i feel like it Your Most Missed Memory: my first real friend Pepsi or Coke: coke. Pepsi too sweet McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's Single or Group Dates: Single Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton Ice Tea Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino Do you Smoke: Never ever! Do you Swear: Yes when appropriate Do you Sing: If I feel like it Do you Shower Daily: Duh! Sometimes more than once Have you Been in Love: Yes, I think we all have Do you want to go to College: Already done Do you want to get Married: Definitely one of my goals Do you believe in yourself: Yes if I know it as a fact, else I question Do you get Motion Sickness: No. I read in the car sometimes Do you think you are Attractive: Heh....yeah =P Are you a Health Freak: Yea quite. Food, fitness, books, sanitation, blah blah blah~ Do you get along with your Parents: sometimes Do you like Thunderstorms: Hell yeah! Do you play an Instrument: Yes. The piano at 10th grade Ever been Drunk: Yes Ever been called a Tease: Yea. It's fun~ XP Ever been Beaten up: Once, but I got him back...twice Ever Shoplifted: Nope How do you want to Die: Not that I want to but... surrounded by my loved ones when nearing death. What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A leader. A motivator. A teacher. Unique. What country would you most like to Visit: Europe. Got all the good stuffz! (Italy!! *loves*)
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Now that my shroud of mysteriousness is gone, I made a profile on facebook with a face pic of myself with my lovely camera. Here is mine...
I bought a book yesterday on Creme Brulee. I always love creme brulee and I would think you all would too. How can anyone not love it?!
Damn I want some right now!
I thought this book was great. The book got a lot of pictures of variations of creme brulee to make. But what sold me was the garnishes included with each brulee. I always wanted to try making desserts, but never got around it. So this book combines my favourite dessert plus how to garnish in a unique way. I always want to learn more. =]
Vanilla Creme Brulee with Raspberry and Caramel Garnish. Looks so yum!
Caramel Foam on this one...
Looks like a liquor shot, but sweeter! =P
Tomorrow, I'll be shopping for some cheap ramekins and blowtorch to start my creme brulee frenzy. I plan to make tons and share it among my friends (aka guinea pigs =P). Once I perfect, I can blow and suck all the creme brulees like no tomorrow. Who wants to blow and suck with me? (cause it's gonna get hot)
Fair warning. If you don't like the white side of reality, my ramblings in this post may offend you.
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I actually do wish for everything, especially those in the previous posting (Yeah, Willy!). It's nice to think "Hey~ good things will come along by itself eventually!" I AM like that. I like things to work for me and don't let anyone get in my way. I like things done hard and I like it good.
Previous post:
I wish for Santa to give me...
...better pillow to sleep on! (Oh how I wish for a softer, fluffier pillow~)
...ipod to listen on while working out! (Please Santa! Relieve me of my cardio boredom!!)
...Canon EOS 5D Mark II Digital camera! (can't say enough how necessary this is. Gotta takenon-blurred pics with my friends so I can share!)
...MUCH FASTER computer to play my games! (Please! FASTER = BETTER)
...a super doggy! (so I can brag to my friends how Bolt took me around the world in 8 secs)
...sexier body for this coming summer! (not that I don't, but that just means even more sexier!)
...cute sexy loving boy to cuddle with during the cold winter! (actually 2 please. thanks)
...a lasting and loving relationship! (4 things: rope, gag, whip, and bed)
That aside, I will still continue this "Wishing" for special occasions like birthdays and praising to Buddha before the new years and stealing wishes during other people's birthday and throughout summer and when at other people's houses and when celebrating holidays and on this blog. Gotta give into it just for the heck of it. =P
I wished and will continue to wish for...
"...EVER"
White is in all of us. Everyone has their own goods. I haven't stated one of mine, which is not appreciating enough, so here it is. One of my white is "knowing everything". That's right. This attribute may sound cheesy, but "knowing everything" encompasses a wide area, including socialization, how people view me, how to make sweet love, who's the next presidential candidates for the states, who actually made the universe, how to cure cancer, etiquette, the meaning of sharing, and expression of love. Now it sounds like it does make a difference to have this attribute or not!
Professional picking... ...cause I KNOW
Emotional IQ(aka EQ)...
...I have brought this peculiar aspect into my relationships. Whites are what will get you and your partner to love each other, especially when it comes to EQ. They will cause happiness and are where ALL your loves will begin (you must have at least 1 love expressions within a day, whether it be text messages or spending time together, if you are to have a healthy relationship or else you don't love your partner well enough). If your partner can't accept or tolerate loves from you, it will make you annoyed and degrade your relationship CONTINUOUSLY and possibly FOREVER. It will make your partner think your love is like nagging.
WAAa wa waa.. wA wa a wa~
But this isn't hard to fix. 1 long discussion on your feelings and he will miraculously accept all your Whites to be with you. This is why finding a true love is actually possible and reality is actually good. Those who believe this will like the reality of things. You would 'know' because you and your guy have SO much in common, that things are meant to be. You would 'know' because he loves and accept you how you are now, he will continue so forever. Hell Yeah! There's tons of couples out there who married and lived for 30+ years with each other and STILL continue to love each other even more. Unless you are both fricking saints, the Whites will eventually absorb into the relationship and create happiness. If you do ANYTHING with your Whites, they will pretty much set you up for a future "REAL HAPPINESS" conclusion.
Use your whites~ ...express it and show it!
There's IS 'true' love, that's a fact because I know everything. But if you didn't find him, you can come close... For those not in the route, get into the game and start expressing those Whites!
To connect all this all my wishes...
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...I'm gonna keep wishing for everything, 'cause I know. =]
Not only will these use of EQ and love expressions make me a better person (and much more 'rare' on the market =] ), but also how others will view me (whether at work or with friends, , how to be a real panda, or shows how I am so much more superior in every aspect of my Whites) and especially in developing closer connections with a future husband.
Feel my expressions!~ FEEL IT!
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Remember if you plan to get married...
I, [bounded boyfriend's name], take you, to be my husband, my constant friend, my faithful partner in life, and my one true love. On this special holy day, I affirm to you in the presence of God and all those in attendance my pledge and sacred promise to stand by your side as your faithful husband in sickness and in health, in joy and in sorrow, as well as through the good times and the bad. I promise tolove you without reservation, comfort you intimes of distress, encourage youto achieve all of your goals,laugh with youand cry with you, grow with youinmind and spirit, always be open and honestwith you, and cherish you for as long as we both shall live.
-Tony's forever love's future vows
Can your love actually say and do all those for you? If not, you should whip him more.
Fair warning. If you don't like the black side of reality, my ramblings in this post may offend you.
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I actually don't really wish for anything, especially those in the previous posting (Sorry Willy!). It's nice to think "Hey~ good things will come along by itself eventually!" I'm NOT like that. I like to be practical and don't let chance get in my way. I hit it hard and I hit it good.
Previous post:
I wish for Santa to give me...
...better pillow to sleep on! (I'll find time to buy it at Walmart)
...ipod to listen on while working out! (it's only 50$..)
...Canon EOS 5D Mark II Digital camera! (not too necessary)
...MUCH FASTER computer to play my games! (will only fuel addiction)
...a super doggy! (I got my Eeyore and Nemo thanks)
...sexier body for this coming summer! (likely if I continue on my harsh regime)
...cute sexy loving boy to cuddle with during the cold winter! (this ain't too hard for me! =P)
...a lasting and loving relationship! (how much effort will determine this)
...Willy!~ (lol~ cute as he is, he's halfway around the world and with his One)
That aside, I will still continue this "Wishing" for special occasions like birthdays and praising to Buddha before the new years. Gotta give into it just for the heck of it. =P
I wished and will continue to wish for
"...a lasting and loving relationship"
Black is in all of us. Everyone has their own flaws. I stated one of mine is not appreciating enough, which is one of the purpose of my blog. This flaw may sound cheesy, but "appreciating" encompasses a wide area, including socialization, how people view me, etiquette, the meaning of sharing, and expression of love. Now it sounds like it does make a difference to fix this or not!
Professional picking...
Commitment...
...I have learnt this peculiar aspect from my relationships. Blacks are what will hit you and your partner hard in commitment. They will cause trouble and is where ALL your arguments will begin (you must have at least 1 within a year if you have a healthy relationship or else you don't know your partner well enough). If you can't accept or tolerate flaws of your partner, they will annoy and degrade your relationship CONTINUOUSLY and possibly FOREVER. Think of an unpoppable acne that will stay on the middle of your nose forever.
WOOooo~ the Zit is here to stay!
This is why finding a true love is actually impossible and reality hurts. Those who don't believe this won't like the reality of things. You would 'assume' because you and your guy have SO much in common, that things are meant to be. You would 'assume' because he loves and accept you how you are now, he will continue so forever. Like comeon! There's tons of couples out there who married and lived for 30+ years with each other and FINALLY figured they don't like each other. Unless you are both fricking saints, the Blacks will eventually seep into the relationship and cause problems. If you don't do ANYTHING about your Blacks, they will pretty much set you up for a future "GET REAL" conclusion.
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There's no 'true' love, that's a fact. BUT you can come close... For those not in the route, get into the game and start eliminating those Blacks!
To connect all this to my one wish, I am willing to commit to fixing my problems on "appreciation" for everything.
I commit reducing my other Blacks.
I commit typing on this blog, not only to express, but to become a ritual.
I commit on following my workout regime, no matter how harsh it may be, to make me a stronger and healthier person.
I commit sharing my views to others, hoping a piece, no matter how small, will influence them.
Not only will these commitments make me a better person (and more 'rare' on the market =] ), but also how others will view me, whether at work or with friends, and especially in developing closer connections with a future husband.
Empowerment~
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Remember if you plan to get married...
I, Tony, take you, to be my husband, my constant friend, my faithful partner in life, and my one true love. On this special holy day, I affirm to you in the presence of God and all those in attendance my pledge and sacred promise to stand by your side as your faithful husband in sickness and in health, in joy and in sorrow, as well as through the good times and the bad. I promise tolove you without reservation, comfort you intimes of distress, encourage youto achieve all of your goals,laugh with youand cry with you, grow with youinmind and spirit, always be open and honestwith you, and cherish you for as long as we both shall live.
-Tony's future vows
Can you actually say and do all those for your love?
I wish for Santa to give me a better pillow to sleep on! I wish for Santa to give me an ipod to listen on while working out! I wish for Santa to give me a Canon EOS 5D Mark II Digital camera to take beautiful pictures! I wish for Santa to give me a MUCH FASTER computer to play my games! I wish for Santa to give me a super doggy! I wish for Santa to give me a sexier body for this coming summer! I wish for Santa to give me a cute sexy loving boy to cuddle with during the cold winter! I wish for Santa to give me a lasting and loving relationship! I wish for Santa to give me Willy!~... ( :P )
Let Willy Free!!
So I watched the movie Bolt last day. It's a story about cute German Shepard, Bolt, who is an action superstar that believes the show he is in is all real. Then one day, he gets lost through some mishaps and wished to get back home, which he did through some friends he meet along the way.
Bolt so cute! I want a doggy... <_<
Mittens so nice~
Rhino so fierce!
Gotta say it's a pretty good movie, with less lovely dove-y stuffz this time around. More like a comedy in the embarrassment side (poor Bolt~). Disney made the movie 3D, so there's a mandatory extra charge for the movie itself since they provide you with HIGH TECH RealD 3d glasses for 3$ extra. Bast*rds!
high tech indeed... looks like real glasses
Why the hell do I need RealD glasses instead of those FREE cardboard ones?!...
Well~ At least it's one of the much better animated movies from Pixar (f*ck you Cars!).
I savoured a 8$ biscotti yesterday. Every... Fricking... Bite of it... slowly, while I was thinking of how much this could had fed a whole family in Africa for 2 weeks. MMMmmmm... luxury!
This a GOOD sh*t!
So I thought of donating to one of those Unicef kids during Chirstmas time. They are always there asking for money like a begger, but more dressed up. Gotta gives props to them. I was forced to do some begging on a couple cold Halloweens for Unicef too. When I was a kid, I really didn't have a clue why I was wasting my time and energy in the cold on getting money for some total strangers instead of more Halloween candy for myself. Funny thing is, the box tells you the donations will give "EDUCATION" and "HEALTH" for them poor kids. Where's MY education and health!? Damn bast*rds.
Forced child labour for the well-offs~
Not to be mean or anything. I still like helping those in needs, particularly children in my area and those in unfortunate circumstances and turmoils. Afterall, a couple bucks ain't too much and it goes a long way for them people. Just consider donating once in a while when you get a chance. Don't really need to have a kind heart or 'good' mind to donate. =]
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In other news, I bought a mini Quatchi for my bag. I couldn't help it. He's just too cute! Besides, it helps support raising funds for the incoming Winters Olympics 2010 in Vancouver. Now I need to get my hands on Mukmuk...~
My family bought me a watch for my birthday which they 'missed'. Since my bday lands on the weeks when they were in Hong Kong, not much could be done about it. The watch is nice. It's from Seiko.
Ya it's not a Rolex... *cries*
Box opens!
Pop opens the watch~
Pillow for my watch =]
OOOOooooooo~...
Weird thing...it glows in the dark!
I actually don't have a watch of my own. I just don't like wearing ANY accessories on myself, necklace, bracelets and watches including. I just find it a hassle to take them off when I'm doing my cooking, swimming, washing my face, or just plain don't like the feeling of something clasping onto me. At least it's what I needed for some of my outfits...
Apparently, when one gives a 'gift of time' (like a WATCH...) during an aging ceremony, it's bad luck. I'm not superstitious, but a friend of mine just made me worry about it (grr!!). So I gave my mom a loonie ($1 Canadian Dollar) and said "I bought the watch" (GRRR again!).
Yes, a lonnie
No workout today. I need to reset my schedule so that I start "Day 1" of my new workout routine on Monday.
I just remembered my favourite poem today. It's "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost. I firmly believe those who travel their own paths are their own person and are 'living life free'. I like being unique. I like saying I am myself and not some other lemming. It's kinda attached to similar concepts from the book Tuesdays with Morrie. Be confident and do what you want and enjoy. I did. :)
"...Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference."
- Robert Frost
Your choice
So my family is coming back from Hong Kong, meaning I'll be less free around the house to do whatever I want....you know.. stuffz.
Oh the Freedom
At least I don't have to do all the chores at home now. Damn I HATE, with upmost hatred and anguish, DISHWASHING. I definitely will need a dishwasher when I move out. And a Swifter for the wooden floors. Just too much hassle!
OMG! EWW~ Dirty dishes for the machiney!~
The ESSENTIAL of any home, despite the vast waste of water and chemical pollutions...
Well that kinda sucks now there's 1 less blogger. Though it makes sense that blogging everyday is quite a hassle, so...
Changes to resolutions. Wasn't very realistic for me to do so much.
My Resolutions
Learn to "appreciate"
Reduce personal flaws
Workout (3x) 6 days a week
Blog workout log daily
Blog interests/activities daily per 2 days (see how this goes)
Update Facebook monthly Eliminate Facebook
2 At least 1 cooking recipes monthly
3 how-to's monthly
Practice harder piano songs
Because of the changes, I'll only post every 2 days, starting tomorrow, on my interests and activities in life. I will be using another site to record my workout since it'd probably be a lot easier to keep track of my progress. Plus it makes blogging less stressful to grab something out of my ass to write about. *wink*
Those who opens up to new ideas..
So today is typical day. I'm not in the mood to really do much for this posting at the moment. Woke up today all pissy from generalities of life. Maybe cause of job hunting, maybe cause of workout aches, maybe cause of living alone for weeks now. Doesn't matter. I'm still pissy nonetheless. Guess I'll need to sleep it off.
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Mudah merasa lelah cukup umum dikeluhkan oleh ibu hamil, terutama di
masa-masa awal kehamilan dan beberapa bulan jelang persalinan. Lelah yang
dirasakan...
Restart a new blog!
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I really have no idea how to continue this blog, too many things to write,
don't know where should I start from.
I will only come here, while I m emo, so i...
Oops
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I totally forgot I had a blog! Hi to anyone who actually still bothers to
perv on my blog anyways. I’ll post an update soon. Maybe after my exams if
I ca...
reflection
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I watched “rak heng siam” or” Love of Siam” today with my bestfriend. And I
managed to do ome thinking and some reflection. The reason why I was so
attract...
ici | 24 / Asian Male ______________________________
Just a guy in good ol' Vancouver who recently graduated and am pursuing a career in health, safety and environment.
My ideal: "Give Everything A Try"
I enjoy many things. Cooking, fine dining, spending $$ on useless items, shopping for hours and checking out guys, snowboarding, dancing and clubbing crazily and wild, playing any boardgames, swinging the Wii remote like an idiot, watching musicals, horrors, scenic driving... anything you can name, I can and will probably do. Well... almost. =]
Chat me up! Rawr!~
My Resolutions
· Learn to "appreciate" · Reduce personal flaws · Workout 3 days a week · Type workout log daily · Blog activities frequently · Eliminate Facebook · 1 cooking recipes monthly
Have a Merry Christmas
